正當皮膚問題開始好轉，壓力逐漸舒緩，身體又響起另一警號，再度告訴我「你需要更多休息！」
昨天早上躊躇滿志，決定十月十一日到 UC Davis 與方老師合作演出布拉姆斯的《第二大提琴奏鳴曲》，還定下練習計劃，心想六星期時間應該沒問題。工作方面慢慢適應，亦已定下這數天要辦的事。
本來還算精神的走入會議室，坐了一小時後突然天旋地轉，站著坐著都覺不穩，還有胸口悶悶想作嘔。坐在辦工室外一會，毫無起色，一動就天旋地轉，從未試過這樣！打電話給鄺醫師，證實了自己的推測：數天來左耳閉塞時輕時重，原來真是有毛病！
好不容易捱的士回家，甫下車就嘔吐在街上，進到家便倒頭大睡，過了數小時後已舒服很多，還有愛心粥增添體力。今天沒有上班，留在家裡，情況好多了。
平時努力做事，一剎那病倒了便甚麼都不能做，只能靜靜躺下，真是無知、無能、無助。
8.30.2007
8.27.2007
8.24.2007
SFS/MTT at Yerba Buena Gardens
In the middle of a nice sunny Friday, SFS and MTT presented a one-hour program at an open area near downtown Financial District. It was my first time attending a symphony concert outdoors. It should be a good chance to check our their condition before they head to such prestigious music festivals in Europe for the first couple weeks in September. Plus I have not seen live music for quite a while.
The program includes movements from Shostakovich's Fifth and Tchaikovsky's First Symphonies, plus the final scene from Strauss' Salome.
When I could finally sit down and started listening to the music, I found it extremely weird to hear an ecstatic soprano singing about love and lust at the brightest time of the day.
The two movements from Tchaikovsky's First Symphony were also dull and uninteresting. I attributed that to the composer instead of the Symphony.
The Symphony is leaving for Europe next week and today's program was extracted from the music they prepared for the tour. The selection for the tour, which also includes John Adams, Prokofiev and Mahler, was actually quite interesting, way better than their tour to Asia last year - European audiences are for sure very picky. The only weak link is definitely the Tchaikovsky. Why would MTT pick this out of everything they could play?
The program includes movements from Shostakovich's Fifth and Tchaikovsky's First Symphonies, plus the final scene from Strauss' Salome.
When I could finally sit down and started listening to the music, I found it extremely weird to hear an ecstatic soprano singing about love and lust at the brightest time of the day.
The two movements from Tchaikovsky's First Symphony were also dull and uninteresting. I attributed that to the composer instead of the Symphony.
The Symphony is leaving for Europe next week and today's program was extracted from the music they prepared for the tour. The selection for the tour, which also includes John Adams, Prokofiev and Mahler, was actually quite interesting, way better than their tour to Asia last year - European audiences are for sure very picky. The only weak link is definitely the Tchaikovsky. Why would MTT pick this out of everything they could play?
8.22.2007
Ice Skin
"Better than the previous one." Surprising comment!
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This morning after I read "Pastor Dave's wife felt called to not date for 2 years, which helped increase faithfulness and develop her." I also read from another "business" email thread about how to rate a girl's cuteness and what one expects from a relationship.
I have a strong mixed feeling.
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This morning after I read "Pastor Dave's wife felt called to not date for 2 years, which helped increase faithfulness and develop her." I also read from another "business" email thread about how to rate a girl's cuteness and what one expects from a relationship.
I have a strong mixed feeling.
8.17.2007
Harmony
Have you ever experienced "perfect harmony" with others?
Through playing music with other musicians, I have experienced that again and again. It is communication without words, with strong currents flowing back and forth between the minds.
Rite of Spring, Shostakovich's Trio, Schumann's Fantasiestucke, Stooge ...
And for numerous times I experienced true "unity" in worship.
These ecstatic experiences keep luring me to play and perform music with others.
I have lost two best teammates in Rev, but I will remember the days in Miami whenever I play or sing "Lord eats Veggi" and "Run into Ice-skin".
Through playing music with other musicians, I have experienced that again and again. It is communication without words, with strong currents flowing back and forth between the minds.
Rite of Spring, Shostakovich's Trio, Schumann's Fantasiestucke, Stooge ...
And for numerous times I experienced true "unity" in worship.
These ecstatic experiences keep luring me to play and perform music with others.
I have lost two best teammates in Rev, but I will remember the days in Miami whenever I play or sing "Lord eats Veggi" and "Run into Ice-skin".
8.09.2007
Apple Diet
The "Apple Diet" is not really eating apples all day! It is an effort I tried to cure my eczema. It involves eating only apples for the first two days. Then for the next two weeks eat fruits for breakfast and a lot of fresh greens for meals. It does sound like a diet plan for losing weights. So far the result was magnificent for the first two days - my skin on the throat area completely healed. When the stress kicked in again before work started, my situation got even worse. I have no idea how to evaluate its effectiveness for now.
One thing I really dislike San Francisco since I moved here is the weather. It is just a bay in between Berkeley and San Francisco, yet the cloud and fog seem to only stay on top of San Francisco, especially in the area where I live. I seldom see the sun and I rarely feel the warmth of summer, while my friends in Berkeley are complaining about the heat. The gloominess depresses me, although one should not be affected by the uncontrollable weather.
I finally got to see the sun in downtown today during lunch. I'm glad.
Will the new job take me again into stress? I hope not. P wrote, "Work is just work, it's so not worth stressing over. If you age from working it would be so sad wouldn't it?" I wish I can remember that.
One thing I really dislike San Francisco since I moved here is the weather. It is just a bay in between Berkeley and San Francisco, yet the cloud and fog seem to only stay on top of San Francisco, especially in the area where I live. I seldom see the sun and I rarely feel the warmth of summer, while my friends in Berkeley are complaining about the heat. The gloominess depresses me, although one should not be affected by the uncontrollable weather.
I finally got to see the sun in downtown today during lunch. I'm glad.
Will the new job take me again into stress? I hope not. P wrote, "Work is just work, it's so not worth stressing over. If you age from working it would be so sad wouldn't it?" I wish I can remember that.
8.06.2007
Welcome to the Working Class
My career officially started on an obscure, cloudy day in San Francisco.
My heart, or mind, or soul, has been under similar condition for quite a while.
Staring at the sky on the way to work, the motion of the bus made me sick. I nearly wanted to throw up.
I had been tired all morning, with my mind running at half speed.
My seat is right next to one person, but also next to another person. The air is stuffy. The atmosphere is weird.
I hope to get out. Then I realized, just treat it normal. I will get used to it very soon, and will get over it soon after.
Paraphrase from someone, "If you ask God for patience, is He going to give you patience directly, or an opportunity for you to experience it?"
Thus ended my first day of work.
My heart, or mind, or soul, has been under similar condition for quite a while.
Staring at the sky on the way to work, the motion of the bus made me sick. I nearly wanted to throw up.
I had been tired all morning, with my mind running at half speed.
My seat is right next to one person, but also next to another person. The air is stuffy. The atmosphere is weird.
I hope to get out. Then I realized, just treat it normal. I will get used to it very soon, and will get over it soon after.
Paraphrase from someone, "If you ask God for patience, is He going to give you patience directly, or an opportunity for you to experience it?"
Thus ended my first day of work.
8.02.2007
8.01.2007
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